untitled(obviously)

as the petals fall from the flowers i am reminded. remembering everything that i once stood and fought for. now i lie down and embrace the gutter. all my life meant lays at my feet in ruins. if this is the truth, then why is my life a lie? if these are the only words that matter, why can't i say them? i kneel in the shadow of Your redemption. this time i will settle for silence or cheap phrases bought by tongues. i deny the only one who truly loves me with every breath. my purpose. grey eats at my soul. anything and everything goes as far as i'm concerned.