teresa falls up the stairs, teresa falls down the stairs

i can't remember when this began. but i know it hasn't always been this way. i used to know your voice. i used to know patience. i used to know peace. slowly my insides took over. telling myself i was my own. taking back what never belonged to me. such a simple, fearfull beginning. a little here and there. creeping like a theif at night, wearing black. leaving Your will shattered on the ground. i turned off all sense so i wouldn't have to feel shame. now i wear white and i come at day. stealing with no regret or fear. i know i can't keep this up. larceny is leaving me wearing thin. pieces of me that can not be returned. if i'm yours, take me! i'm so sick of sailing after my own ambitions. only to end up shipwrecked in the middle of the ocean. why can't i trust you? i can't trust your hands. even though they are the only ones that have held me. your palms scream of love!