cursed by the day that i arrive

Today I realized that life is full of SO MUCH beauty, it's overwhelming! After a long time of thinking and rethinking about the nature of human existence I have to come to a very simple conclusion. First of all I have finally decided that there will never be a day that I am satisfied with myself as a human being or follower of Christ. In fact, I hope there is never a day that I am completely satisfied with myself as a well-rounded person, or faithful follower of Christ. There is so much for me to learn about selflessness, love, people, and life in general. I am constantly failing God in every aspect of my walk with Him. So as for now I have decided that I am going to try to enjoy the ride, and enjoy the learning experience that is life. Second of all I have decided that I am blind! There is so much beauty in the everyday things, that I often pass by without a second glance. I cannot even imagine how amazingly different my life would be if I would simply stop and admire God and the beauty of life without giving so much time to all the pointless distractions I put in my life. So many times in my life I feel like I have seen everything there is to see and I feel like God doesn't surprise me anymore, but if I would just look past my own face I would be swept off my feet by his beauty and majesty. He is a field without a fence and a door without a key.